If I was to put a sticker…

2011
12.19

…on my car, this is what it’d be

I know that the work I did and extremely awesome circumstances made it possible, and I believe it is every bit as much of an accomplishment as marathons (26.2 stickers), half marathons (13.1 stickers), and letting people know where you live or vacation.   I also want to add that having a sticker that would just say “CB” would be awesome, too, because if you’ve brought a child into the world, whether by drug-free-old-fashioned-birth, epidural-old-fashioned, epidural-and-narcotic-pain-medication-old-fashioned, epidural-and-narcotic-pain-medication-and-tranquilizer-old-fashioned, epidural-and-cabernet-old-fashioned, cesarian-birth, or even jump-on-a-plane-and-pick-up-your-baby-after-someone-else-gave-birth-birth, you deserve a sticker for your car.  For making it through the numb first three weeks where you feel like your world has been picked up by the hand of God and twisted like a rubik’s cube (or was that just me?), for making it through the first fever and for constantly (or occasionally) worrying that something you are doing may be permanently damaging this baby/child/teenager, whether it’s feeding him food in the wrong sequence, letting him cry himself to sleep, making him get back on the bike that just flung him off, grounding him for not telling you where he’s going to be even though he wasn’t doing anything bad… and for all the things I don’t know yet because C is only 7 months old.  Anyone who has done / is doing this gets a sticker, too.  But this one is mine and I would wear it proud… if I didn’t think other people would think I’m bragging or that I’m judging people who didn’t do it this way.

Enlightenment in a Book

2011
11.06

First sign I may not be ready for this book: I just misspelled Enlightenment.  I wrote Enlightentment.  Luckily it had a red dotted line under it indicating my error. I stared at it for 5 full seconds, trying to figure out what I got wrong.  This could also just mean that I need to get more than 5 hours of sleep.

Another sign: I lack focus.  Husband just told me to look at this great link, right now.  He says once I read it, he’ll be my hero forever, or I’ll love him forever; whatever it is, it’s going to be forever.  Challenge accepted – hopefully I’ll be back in a minute… okay I’m back. He was right, he is my hero forever and I love him forever.  But all that was true before I went to the link.  The reason he sent it is because it’s another example of a correct usage of “Begging the Question”.  I have some strange pet peeves and one of them is incorrect usage of “Begging the Question”.  Maybe I’ll write more about it someday.

Anyway, back to Enlightenment in a book.  Last year I was at a cafe slash open minded place of worship (worshiping many different things) slash alcoholics anonymous meeting center slash BOOKSTORE, and they had a sale for 50% off Natural Radiance: Awakening to your great perfection by Lama Surya Das.  I read the description and realized it’s suggesting the reader will reach enlightenment with it’s wisdom, and it was $10.  Who WOULDN’T pay $10 for Enlightenment?  Of COURSE I bought it.  I’ve had the book sitting on a shelf for probably a year now.  Imagine that: Enlightenment sitting on your book shelf.  So I’ve got that going for me.  Which is nice.

I decided to pick it up tonight, but before I do, I figure I’d announce that I’m picking it up.  Because that’s what bloggers do right?  And since I’m a blogger now, here I am.  Announcement made.

Bonus:  The hardback version comes with an Audio CD for guided meditations.  The book jacket indicates I shouldn’t listen to it until I’ve read the book.  I’ll probably listen anyway.  I’m a rebel like that.

All kidding aside, I think the book’s goal of helping me to see the perfection in things just as they are will help me to let go of the stupid societal perfection ideas that I seem to have lurking in the shadows of everything I do.

The journey of a thousand posts…

2011
11.04

I’ve decided I just need to start. My page isn’t as pretty as I’d like it to be- I have an awkward piece of shag carpeting at the top of my menu. I guess my ‘life’ isn’t as pretty as I’d like it to be either. I had a baby boy (he is a thousand times ‘prettier’ than I ever imagined) who is 5 months old, so my house is CHAOS. Before I gave birth, I had settled into a great little routine of keeping my great little house simplistic and tidy. We moved to a new home, which doubled our square footage, and my time seemed to shrink to 5 minutes a day. I have to admit it’s getting better– so I’m hoping to find some new routines. Of course, I can think of 20 daily routines off the top of my head, and I know that trying to form 20 new habits all at once is a flock of birds near La Guardia Airport (sure to cause me to crash and burn), so I just want to start with one- singing einsy weinsy spider to C every morning over breakfast. Getting a shower every day would be nice, too, but don’t let me get ahead of myself. So if you read this, pay no attention to my blog template, which is under construction… What I do want people to notice is that my life is under construction, and getting better all the time.

Update: Just getting the post up spurred me to get rid of the awful shag carpeting.  It was kinda starting to smell anyway.  I’ve replaced it with a watermarked window.  I always ‘test drive’ photos for purchase to make sure I’m going to like them.  I like this, but when I went back to purchase the photo, it saw it costs $22.50 because it’s a ‘vector image’.  I have no idea what that means.  I should probably figure it out since I’m the ‘Diet Coke’ of  Website Designers/Developers (Just one calorie, not quite designer/developer enough).  I’m not going to pay $22.50 for a picture of a window, especially when Enlightenment in a book only costs $10.  So now my illegal menu is hanging out until I get another measure of free time to work on its replacement.  At least that awful carpet is gone:

The previously mentioned 'awkward shag carpeting'